Chapter 22: Recovery and Growth

Chapter 22: Recovery and Growth

“Sometimes life knocks you on your ass…get up, get up, get up! Happiness is not the absence of problems, it’s the ability to deal with them.”
― Steve Maraboli

August 31, 2017, marks 22 years since the birth of a lost inner-city queen. The past 12 months have been bittersweet – started off bright and optimistic but 2017 had put me in a sunken place and the long-winded battle to carry on has carried a huge toll on my overall health. For the first time, I had to deal with the death of a loved one and it hit me twice in such a short space of time and worst off, in the midst of exam season. Since then my life has been trash but I kept it together to avoid the constant questions on my wellbeing.

There were some good moments that happened this year. My dance squad swept up at all of our competitions and I successfully completed my tenure as Treasurer of the society. The trip to Greece was a great unwinding session with my family and a much-needed break from the everyday city lights, however, it was all short-term happiness. Once I returned, I traveled back to Nottingham and voluntarily secluded myself with my thoughts until I decided otherwise. This downward spiral had me going back to my teenage ways – comparing myself to others on Instagram, comfort eating, self-hate and all sorts. A hot damn mess. 

Now I turn 22 – 8 years away from 30 and currently feel like I’m yards away from where I really should be. It sickens to know that I voluntarily allowed the enemy to be a distraction and halt my journey to greatness by attempting to deplete my self-worth but I refuse to let this continue so I’m dedicating this year to recovery and growth. Starting again wouldn’t do me any justice so I’m picking up from where I left off and making the necessary changes in my life that will allow me to freely flourish and prosper mentally, emotionally, financially and physically.

By doing this, I am making a pledge to myself to abandon fear, recognise my self-worth and realise my dreams and ambitions through consistency, dedication and necessary sacrifice. This year I want to push myself beyond my limits, achieve greater goals irrespective of time. I will do better because I DESERVE better.